Urban Green Farm

health

You know when it is hard to write about the little stuff, stuff that normally you have no trouble writing, because something big is always on your mind? 

The big thing is not my story to share, but someone close to me is going through a health scare and in times like this it throws your thoughts around. 

Will they be ok? What is happening? Why can't we know more sooner? It's not fair....

It also makes thoughts turn to oneself, it's unavoidable really. Not only thoughts about what can I do? how can I help? But bigger things like am I healthy? What really matters in all this? What is important? 

And truly, the thing that matters most is health. That the people I love are healthy. Money, stuff, vacations, decks, clothes, all of it fades away when health is in question. 

So to stay on top of health, to be actively involved in a small amount of health I can control, my own, I saw the Dr yesterday about all my moles. Ohhh wow do I have a lot of moles. Over 100. And I am pasty and I have blue eyes and blonde hair, all things that are risk factors of moles turning bad. I really should have them checked every year, but when littles come and your mind is always on THEIR health, these things are forgotten. 

I have a few funny ones, so my amazing Dr is going to remove them on Friday and make sure everything is ok. Staying ontop of health. 

So challenge for the day: go get your mole checked, or that pain, or ache. Just go get a physical! A pap test, or even just write a note in your calendar to make an appointment for you, not for just the kids. 

Because friends health scares are SCARY and I know for most of these scares there is honestly little we can do to prevent them, but that doesn't mean we should not try. 

If you have a moment send a prayer, a thought, a healhty vibe to this loved one of mine. Thank you. 

TODAY: Playdate with a buddy I haven't seen in a while, always fun. More cleaning, I got the kitchen done yesterday, that was all. And some more reading because I am sooo addicted to these books I finished an entire one yesterday! I am so crazy like that. Good day ahead I predict. 

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I got my period on Saturday. 

The good news, since losing Glitter I have had 2, 30 day cycles! It's almost a predictable thing now. Crazy. 

The bad news, I know what it feels like to be a women now.

I didn't get my first period till I was 16. The period's I got were soo random and scattered, happening every 15 days, every 60 days, every 25 days etc etc. I would never know when they were coming, I had no other symptoms but bleeding. 

After having Ivy I got a few more real periods, with some symptoms, but nothing major. Same thing after Ayla was born. But these last 2 periods have been intense! WIth 2 days prior hormones surging like crazy, making me an emotional, grumpy mess! Then during the actual period, cramping, bloating, moodiness, just crapola. 

Like NORMAL people. How did you all do this for soooo long? Blah, hate it. 

So I struggled through the weekend being a mess, just tired and sore and a grump a lump. Sundays are normally the families messiest day, but with me being so out of it, the house is a garbage can of gross. BLAH hate starting out the day like this. 

Only one thing to do, drink coffee all morning, blog, read, and ignore the massive stink that is my house. 

TODAY: Well, really, there has to be some level of cleaning. I also have to get Tissue food, pop into the Dr office, and pick up a few essential things....like the next book in the series, ohh and food, yes children need food. BAH busy day! 

 

_my here . my now_

You will often find me with a book in my hand, haha or a computer :) 

Whenever there is a spare moment, like the chiclettes are both playing happily, Ayla is napping, Ivy's with Daddy, the soup is simmering, whatever, I will get a few more pages read. 

I read ALL kinds of books, seriously I will try anything. I just finished reading The Series of Ice and Fire by George  R R Martin. It was AMAZING and there are still 2 books he has to finish writing! 

So sitting around one day with no book to read, Ivy was in the tub and I was itching to use this spare moment with some reading. So I ran to my stash of in the midst of reading books (I have started many books and then went on to something more exciting before finishing them!). There I found the 9th book of The Lemony Snicket books, A Series of Unfortunate Events. Before Keith and I had children we both loved these books. Keith would read a chapter to me every night before bed. We got 1/3 way through the 9th when Ivy was born and there we stopped. 

I picked it up and knew exactly where the story left off and dove in remembering the good times we had reading these books. But the big difference is now I have kids and reading about these orphaned, abandoned and all alone children has brought me to tears many, many times! I read the rest of the 9th one that day. I am now almost done the 10th one. 

Ohh books! Whats in your hands right now?

TODAY: Laundry! Ahhh it is mounting. And possibly locking my spicy baby in her room all day.....joking, but dudes she gets in these inconsolable fits and it drives me mad!!!!!