July 04, 2008

Multiple Choice

Which ones are your favorite?

A. Consignment snake skins


B. New York Hotties


C. Blue and Gold Ribbons


D. David Dixons

Leave in the comment section your favortie pair! I will tally all the votes up for Monday's post and tell you which ones are my favorite! A special prize of sorts will be awarded to one of the commenters selected at random!

Also stay tuned on Monday for of course, Movie Monday's selection, shoe contest winner and pole dancing adventures 2!

I am honestly just to sore and tired to write more. My finger bones hurt from all the strippersiseing I am doing.

July 03, 2008

Warning, I am a bitch, I mean no offence

Coming back from vacation is always hard. Coming back to presents helps! And when arriving home hearing the news of all your friends and family that you missed out on while gone, is usually a normal event.

I came back to LOADS of friends who had their babies. Some more who found out they are expecting twins and some more you got their much deserved and awaited for positive pregnancy tests.

I am excited and thrilled for all these people, because ALL of them have experienced infertility in some way. So the sting isn't as large. So honestly after hearing all these exciting pieces of news I was feeling happy and so over joyed for my friends, until I told Keith.

He seems to be now, where I was 6-8 months ago. He did not handle this news well. He was upset and angry and screaming "Why can't we have a baby! Why isn't it us telling everyone this good news?" Watching this information hurt him, hit me like a ton of bricks.

I am still so happy for you all, cause I know a lot of those who experienced this good news read this blog, and that is why I have the warning up there. Just seeing Keith hurt like that, made this all a little overwhelming. See I was at the point where I no longer seethed with raging jealousy when a pregnant women walked by. Keith sees one and says something like "F her and her happiness." I am also at the point where I am totally capable of celebrating the birth of a baby or a pregnancy announcement with my friends. Keith is feeling the all to common pain of, if they are pregnant, then there is less of a chance for us to get pregnant.

Seeing him this way, all to easily drags me back to that mindset. It has made me grumpy the last couple of days.

But I am DONE. I don't want to think like this again. So I am not going to. I am not going to run away into my dark shell and hide from the baby covered world. I am going to see my friends baby boy, who was born while we were gone, tomorrow. I am going to continue to scream with joy for the pregnancies of Mel and Jaime, cause man oh man these girls deserve this blessing. And I am going to continue to hope that my child is coming. I am just at the point where I see that child coming to us more realistically through adoption.

I have come to the point where I want to stop infertility treatments. I want no more. Keith does though. We tried to talk about this yesterday, it was not a good conversation. I want to take this time to focus on adoption and really think of ourselves as pregnant with a child being born from our hearts. But Keith is not ready to make that sole commitment. So we are going to continue with adoption and infertility treatments. As soon as my period arrives we will be scheduling our 2nd IUI. We will do one more if this one fails, and then we face IVF. I told Keith that if we get there, I want to stop. Maybe just for a year so that we can save up the $10 000 needed, and give ourselves the opportunity to fully concentrate on adoption.

I don't know what is going to happen. This all sounds like a great plan, but we all know how well plans work out.

I hope those of you who are pregnant or have babies know how much I love you, I am sorry for being a bitch, but it's what I am feeling and what I promised this blog would be, the truth.

July 02, 2008

Fitness here I come

If you are really interested in more pictures, you are welcome to stop by

here

and here

and here!

Sorry! Picture malfunction! I am working on it! FIXED!!

I told you, a lot of pictures. If you got through all 3 of those slide shows, you are awesome, and possibly a little bored? And may know a little too much about my trip now? Hope you enjoyed them!

So you may be asking, why oh why did Alicia take until after dinner time to post yesterday? Well....because she is spoiled.

See the end of vacations are a very dark time for me. Because the end of vacations mean that I have to return to LIFE. Which is boring, and crappy and WORKING. So I generally get inconsolably upset. Keith has figured this out. He has also figured out a solution.

Presents.

So now at the end of my vacation I come home to a present! That way I have something to look forward too!

This time he went all out. He got me this:

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A Wii Fit! AHHH! Holy crap it is so cool. So yes I had meant to post and blog all day long on Canada Day, but instead I played with my Wii Fit. Which is amazing. And makes me want to exercise, cause it's just that fun. How long do we think this will last?

Anyways, it weighs you and tells you your BMI and makes you set weight loss goals and gives you tokens for completing minutes of exercises which unlock fun games and there is a personal trainer that makes you keep going and I bet it makes you feel really bad if you skip a day! So great! It's like my own little motivation included gym right here in my living room! No jokes, I lost a pound on it today! 1 pound, in less then a hour! So cool. My goal is to lose 10 in 2 months! It has yoga, and aerobics and strength training and everything! LOVE IT! So I am seriously going to try to wake up each morning and give it a go for a while. Chant with me, I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT!

I did wake up this morning at 5:30 and had a sweet workout! Go me!

SOOOO fun.

Remind of this in a week, after waking up at 5:30 in the morning each day to accomplish this weight loss thing.

PS I got a hair cut on the cruise!

BEFORE

AFTER

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See bangs! So hot. I might be drunk in this picture....

July 01, 2008

Guess who's home?

WHOA! Sooo many comments to reply too, did you miss me peeps? Obviously with a comment box that out of control. Awe I feel the love.

Sooo I went to this little place called Alaska? Did you hear?

Anyways, so fun, SO FUN. Cold, wet, rainy, non beachish fun, but fun. Everyone say YAY for packing only summer clothes and having to wear the same damn sweater everyday...YAY! What do you mean, dude Alaska is cold? Umm sure in the winter, but yo it's summer, 20 hours of daylight summer. How was I supposed to know their summers consist of 6 out of 7 days a week of rain?

BUT my friends I ate, ohh I ate. And friends I drank, ohhh I drank. And friends I DID NOT GAIN WEIGHT! Holy angel of miracles, I stayed the same weight. I don't know how this is possible, maybe from all the swaying and falling of drunken stopper, but otherwise, not sure?

Yes I have pictures. But there are 200 of them. And then there are Carmen and Nate's that I have not seen yet, and I think they have 300. Soooo I will give you the quick re-cap here and tomorrow provide a link with all of them, you know if you are bored and want to live vicariously through me, but be warned, I was drunk about half this trip, so they may suck and repeat a lot.



Carmen and I drove to BC, and the boys flew with Grace. On our way through Banff we saw this. Ya I know SOOO cool. You are speechless. Probably because you have no idea why I am so excited about a log stump thing. BECAUSE PEOPLE THAT BLACK SPECK BACK THERE IS A GRIZZLY BEAR! With her 2 cubs. And yes we were all Japoneseish and pulled over on the side of the road to take this picture, because bears LOVE people, they don't eat them.

This is the hotel Carmen and I stayed at in Sun Peaks. Never heard of it hey? Neither had we. And after getting pulled over TWICE in the period of 10 minutes by BC police, I really needed a break. My dad arranged this room for us. He said it was a little ways out. The lady who answered the phone told us it was a little ways out. They did not clarify the hour drive up a freakin mountain to get to it kinda ways out. But it was worth it. It was beautiful, a little mini town at the top of the mountain. We even crashed a bachelor party, because we are so dang cool.

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THE BOAT! Yes it's a mother huge picture, cause it's a mother huge boat. It is indeed a floating city. I did not expect the massiveness and the cityness of the vessel. It contained 5 nightclubs, 6 different eating establishments, 1 casino, 1 pool, 4 hot tubs, 1 spa, 1 hair salon, 1 coffee bar, bazillions of rooms and accommodated 1800 passengers and 900 staff. Who carried 6000 pieces of luggage. Average age of those on board 80, average weight of those on board 300lbs. It was a special crowd.

Yes we are cute! Thanks. Our first night on the boat. The first night of much partying. The first night of absolute drunkenness, for me anyways.

The source of my inebriated state. The martini sample, which I drank every night. It consisted of 6 drinks. All different types of martinis, it was $10!!! It was my favorite thing about the trip. Same with the sushi, hot tub, caffeine and all other kinds of no no pregnancy items.


Ketchikan Alaska. Our first port. Home of the lumber jack show, which was all kinds of awesome. They sawed logs and ran up trees and danced on the logs on water and they were funny! It was great.

Side note, it rains 300 days of the year here. Not the place for me.

The natives in the small nearby town of Saxson, put on a dance for us. This log cabin reminded me so much of the community centre in Old Crow, Yukon, it felt like I should have been wearing a parka and avoiding the crazy family that I lived with.

Ketchikan was obviously my favorite stop because I have 3 pictures of the place! This is Dolly's house on Creek Street. Creek Street used to be the red light district when prostitution was legalized in Alaska. It is a street over looking the river, held up by sticks coming out of the cliffs. Dolly's House is the last bit of originality left, with tours of how the district used to be, and of course everyone dressed up in character. This is Dolly! I totally fit in once I gave them a glimpse of my pole dancing moves.



GRACE! She's so cute, and with such great style. Holding the best pair of shoes on earth. My kinda baby.

The view almost the whole way. Pretty freakin spectacular.

Soo we went to this place called the Hubbard Glacier. Do you see all the tourists running outside to take pictures, in their parkas?! Umm hello, the view is the same from this location and a hell of a lot warmer. We had tourists take our pictures, because they just could not believe people were out side in swim suits in this temperature. They obviously never left inside until this day, and also have never been in a HOT TUB!

Oh shocking, look more booze. This is the champagne sampler and no they are not all for me. Again you get 6 different types of champagne, we all did it! And yes I had a martini sampler after this.


Juneau! There is another Glacier there, which we walked pretty close too. And then we decided to take a nice little hike up through the woods that promised to take us closer. It took us 4 hours. It did not get us closer, merely higher up. It was a fun hike though and my knee held out! Surgery success!

This guy was there to great us at the end of the hike. We turned a corner and bam, 6 feet away was a black bear right there on the trail. My first instinct was to take out my camera, the cruise tourists obviously rubbing off on my wits. Soon after I realized, life could be slightly more important then a really sweet shot of a bear. So we turned around in a slight panic and luckily found a trail guide not to far away. He led us back to the path where the bear disappeared. We heard a rustle. In 3 freakin seconds a bear larger then most cars just pranced up this freakin tree. And that is him, the black blob of bearness.


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This is in Sitka. It was a pointless little town, which I think cruise lines stop at just to get the people off the boat so the staff can do coke and drink copious amounts of booze, because honestly there is nothing there! We got to ride there in a life boat, that was the coolest part of the whole thing. And yes it was cold. And yes that black sweater was the one I wore everyday.


My favorite part of the cruise. This band. The Rachelle Courtney Quartet. We listened to them EVERY night. They were amazing, and wonderful. Before I left I had mentioned to Keith that I wanted to go dancing every night into the late hours of the day. He said he didn't want to dance. I said that would be fine I would dance with the old men. They would love me. Unbeknown to me, the old men all seemed to have been forced into dance lessons at some point in their lives, because they all kicked some serious ass at dancing. So I watched and listened and silently ate my words that I would be the BOMB to these old guys.

After the cruise we spent a night in the Vancouver Marriott. It was fun to have a day in Van, as I have not been there in years. We went to the Science center (yes we are geeks) and we mastered the bus system and went to a little island to shop. It was glorious.


We had a great trip. I don't really want to be home, but I missed Tissue soo much! Do you think he missed me?? Any word on that? 

The link of pics tmr!

June 30, 2008

Show and tell 6

AH YA!  I TriCk you Silly GOOses. It is THe ME, TISSUE!

I am SOO Fine. I nO need OF thoSE PArentaL UNits. They Just DIStracT FRom the Sleeping and EAtign That keepS me SOOO a BUSy.

AHH I kid YOU. I am SOOrry mOMMy and DADdy. I MISS you PLEAZ COME BAck NOw. PLEASE! I NO More eat sHOes and Ribbons and NO More POOps on teh CArpet. I try Real hard. COME home!

Look Me As a KItten Baby. So cuTe. COME HOME! YOu Miss this Fluffness.

I know HARD to BElieves that I Was So TINY?

No yOU CannOT Eat mE? It Is HArd THe cuteNEss is OverWhelming.

OK! YOu Cans COme in ANd cuddle!

Awe! I miss you Tissue soo much. I wish you were in Alaska with me, but I have a feeling you wouldn't be so good with the whole motion sickness thing.

EXCUse EXcuse Mommy. LOve YOU.

June 27, 2008

Show and tell 5

I have another addiction. It's more expensive then dirty novels. It sometimes gives me money back, but I am pretty sure I spend more then I get.

It's card making. Stampin Up products. I have a lot. Here let me show you:

Some of the cards we have made in class every month. For the past 3 years.

My drawer of paper. Nice paper. Expensive paper. But oh so lovely. Look at all those colors.

My drawer of stamps. And yes there are 2 more rows underneath this one you cannot see. It is a problem. I am not getting help.

A flower punch kit, felt flower kit, pretty flower kit, metal hardware kit and pencil crayons! Yes all Stampin Up. Yes I use it all. No I am not some flower loving, hippie child freak. There is just a lot of flower products to be had.

A basket of ribbon, stamp rollers, paper crimper and all kinds of scissors! Tissue has chewed all of this to hell. I once found a spoll of ribbon, soaked and DRIPPING of his saliva. And later I found more ribbon in a clump of poo he left for me on the carpet. NICE.

Inks, punches, adhesives, brads, buttons, glitter, pens. Loads of things! I keep these 2 so organized I could find stuff with my eyes closed. Oh yes I am just that freaky that I have tried.

And here we have 3 paper cutters. Cause you know, there could be a card emergency that arises and I have to cut paper with both my hands and a foot. It could happen?

Luckily there is no paper cutting, or really any physical work where I am. Because most likely I am eating. Probably something really fatty and good. I imagine I have gained, oh 10 pounds by now?

June 26, 2008

Show and tell 4

When we moved into our house, I knew right away which room would be the nursery. I thought about not even bothering setting it up as a guest room cause it was going to be in need soon.

Of course that did not happen. It is still a guest room. It is painted like a nursery, but no babe is to be placed there.

Now I am thinking of the room as the soon to be room for our adoptive child/ren. I painted it as a nursery, so it will have to change, and I am excited to design and paint the room with my kids, help them make it their own space. So now instead of imaging where the change table will go, I am thinking about where all their toys and books and clothes will go.

And I am excited. The only thing is, with a pregnancy nesting is quite normal. You are able to set up the room because you know what age of child you will have, so you are able to prepare. With adoption I do not know how old they will be. But I so long to nest.

So in my small way I have:

These are all my books from my childhood. I took them out of my hope chest and put them into the kids room. I cannot wait to read these stories to my children. I still remember the happy, wonderful feelings reading these books gave me, and sharing those moments with my kids will be priceless. There are also a few stuffies and toys up there too. But what's in the green bag?

After our second home study, when Social Worker told me that she can see no reason why we would not be allowed to adopt, I had to celebrate. I went to a near by kids store and walked around looking for something that any age child could use, and any gender. It was not easy but I found this puzzle. It's bright and fun and I remember playing this game with some of my autistic clients. I thought it would be perfect. My first gift to these little ones. I can't wait to see them playing with it.

Speaking of playing, I have spent a day swimming, dancing, eating and sight seeing...ahh the good life.


June 25, 2008

Show and tell 3

Do you want to know what I packed??

Every outfit you can imagine, from the glamorous to the sporty. I pretty much managed to squeeze my whole closet into one giant suitcase. GIANT. But I will be well prepared with many wardrobe options, which is essential to any trip. I also have another suitcase. It is loaded with only SHOES! I took 12 pairs. I am not even pulling your leg. I cannot live with out them. And I seriously had a pang of guilt leaving my others behind. They were all like, “why can't we go to

Alaska

?? Huh not important enough to you. Fine then, watch us give you wicked blisters and swollen feet. Oh right we already do that.”

Show and tell 3...is.....

My dirty little secret, called the Anita Blake series by Laurel K Hamilton. Do you see how these books are hidden in a row behind other books? Ya, cause if someone was visiting and for some reason decided to start flipping through one of my books and read these, well they would probably be embarrassed about getting turned on in my living room, cause YO these books are hot.

They are about vampires and vampire slayers and necromancers and shapeshifters and I SO WANT THEM TO BE REAL and if I could choose I would be a vampire slayer. My desire for being a stripper comes from these babies. There is a lot of crazy vampire sex involved. They are quite awesome, and I am totally addicted.

And now you know my little secret, my dirty little book collection. Yes you can borrow them! I will start a little sign out system like the library, cause they are just that good.

I bet right now I am sitting beside a pool, with a array of food beside me, reading a book, sadly not one of these, cause I have read them all, but one about adoption, or Edgar Allan Poe or something like that. JEALOUS?

June 24, 2008

Show and tell 2

So what kinda things do you guys do before leaving on a vacation?

I bet you all wash your microwave right? RIGHT? Come on I know you do! No? Well honestly it's not that surprising that I do wash my microwave before leaving on vacation, because I am OCD and just plain old weird. Why I did this, well my sister is staying at the pad to watch the beast so I thought she would like a splatter free microwave! So kind I am I know, you can present me with the award you are making when I get back.

Sooo show and tell 2.....is......CALENDARS! Do you remember this? How I have 4 calendars that must be updated and current all the time, you know just in case one breaks or crashes or dies and then WHAT THE HECK WOULD I DO? I would be so lost, my life hanging out in the open, no plans I can remember, no schedule to run on. The mess, oh the mess.

So here is one of the many calendars:

This is the ginormous family calendar in our kitchen. This way Keith can see what I am doing, since I am the only one who fills it out. It could be important that he know this, like in case he needs help changing the toilet paper roll, but cannot find me, he can look at the calendar and see that I am at pole dancing/art class/stampin up class/book club/out with friends or whatever else. So crucial.

And the all important hand held version that goes everywhere I do. If you know me and are making plans with me you have seen me use this. If you have not and are making plans with me, then I must not care about you.

Ya and now just imagine me, sipping a cosmo on the deck of the cruise, watching the dolphins swim by. Hate me yet?

June 23, 2008

Show and tell 1

Because it is Monday, and double because I missed last Monday...let's start off with a movie!!

It's a little bit old, but it is soo wonderful. I love the personality's of the characters and the totally out there story line. It has love, drama and twists! Keith even liked it! I thought Kate Winslet was sooo awesome in this role, and knowing her really only from Titanic this was quite surprising! Check it out if you are looking for something different, but really enjoyable.

Now for the show and tell.....since I am talking about movies every week, I thought I would show you my stash.

These are the ones kept in the ottoman. There are a few layers of DVDs there. Many VHS, but don't judge! I used to work at blockbuster and when the VHS's started becoming overtaken by DVDs I swooped in on all the deals. Do you think there will still be VCRs when our kids are older??

And then there are more. The ones in the basket beside the TV, the ones most recently watched and are placed there cause my feet are usually on the ottoman, and man I just don't want to move them to put the movie back!

I miss you guys already! But just think, here I am somewhere floating down the coast, eating. I plan to eat really just 24/7, you know get my moneyies worth!

Sweet Things

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