I defiantly think it's time for another Fly on the Wall post over here! I need more volunteers friends! Let me know if you are interested in documenting part of your day and telling us all what your day shapes up to be! Check in here tomorrow to see the Fly on the Wall, Millis Family Afternoon.
I feel I need to do another one of these, because I sometimes wonder, am I the only mom struggling through this? Is this what all kids do? And the biggest question of all, and why I really want some visitor fly posts, can I do all this with even MORE kids?
There are moments, when the day is going REALLY bad where I question my desire for more children, even in a really BAD BAD parenting moment I have shouted at Ayla or Ivy "It's this kind of behaviour that is going to keep us from having another baby!" Wow, that is really super special, like really that's just mean! Ivy wants another baby so bad, and I can tell Ayla would be incredible with one, and their actions have nothing to do with more babies or not, it's whether Keith and I can handle their behaviours plus more from other kids!
But, even during those bad days, those bad moments, I honestly still have a desire for more children. And I do think I can handle it. Pregnancy is hard, labour is HARD, the first year of life is hard, but there is SOO much more then those first challenging years and I don't want to skip out not having more babes because of those challenges.
We had a special day yesterday and as strange as it was I ended up being very proud of myself and my children. A friend took us to Costco and normally my kids are superstars in the grocery store, I have NEVER had a issue. Ayla loves watching people, so she is always entertained and right when we get into the store Ivy gets a small toy, box of crayons, stickers, colouring book, bubbles or a book, something small in price, and she gets to hang onto it through out the trip. If she misbehaves or doesn't listen she loses her prize. I have NEVER had to take a toy away. This method always works for her, because gifts are her love language. But yesterday....oh yesterday. Ayla feel asleep as we pulled into the parking lot, I tried to transfer her sleepy self to the sling, but no luck. So she was a GRUMP. Ivy even was mopping and whiny about the whole thing! I ended up carrying IVY in the sling for a good chunk of time. And then Ayla lost her marbles. She thrashed and screamed and freaked the freak out.
If I was alone the cart full of groceries would have been abandoned. Luckily my friend was there to push the cart and keep Ivy near us, while I held the thrasher. But even with Ayla' s meltdown and ear drum breaking levels we kept shopping. And I wasn't even mad, or losing my cool. I was just embracing the awkward moment and brushed peoples glances off with a reminder to myself that dude you were all babies once too. I felt bad for Ayla, I put her in this hard place. She was tired. And I pushed her nap time for my schedule, something I do a lot to her! I hate one nap. Finally she passed out in my arms and I truly just felt warm happy thoughts about my girls. I am a lucky women.
After this you think I would head home and never leave. But Ayla was still sleeping, so we drove around and she woke up just as I was at the Superstore. I needed a few more items Costco didn't have, so back to grocery land we went. And they did AMAZING! They were better then good, they were sweet and giggling and I was like OH YA I can have more.
Any secrets about having a large family? Any tips you can share?
TODAY: Taking pics of all our afternoon moments to share with you tomorrow! Could be amazing, could be crazy, we just won't know till later!





